A Baby Story

We've been home with baby now for a few weeks. We've been enjoying our time getting aquainted and learning how to do this newborn thing again. I had all but forgotten the total exhaustion that comes along with a new born. zzzzzzzzzzzz. My labour and delivery story is thankfully pretty uneventful. I was already dialated 6-7 cm when we arrived at the hospital. I was checked into a delivery room given a little laughing gas, given an epidural, I gave a couple pushes and along came baby Auley. We spent a couple of nights at the hospital and then made our way home plus one.

So now we are home and we've survived the first couple of weeks. What a difference two is compared to one. I feel as though I spent the whole first week home instructing the toddler, don't touch, gentle, stay away from the baby, get out of the playpen, don't shake the playpen, leave your brother alone. It was so frustrating and my heart just broke for Cian. When a second child comes along the first child's world truly does turn upside down. Now when Cian wants to climb up on Mommy's lap for a quick cuddle half the time there is no room on that lap because it is occupied by this new addition. And before whenever Cian needed me for ANYTHING even to show me some little speck that interested him on the floor I was able to stop what I was doing and fully engage with him. Now, I sometimes feel as though he's lost something. Something I don't know how to name. Something that we had, just the two of us. It makes me a little sad. I am sure Cian will adapt. He already has started to show a bit of understanding and is starting to become content sitting beside mommy and baby while we nurse. And all is not loss. Even though right now Auley isn't that much fun for Cian over the coming months I know Cian will find in Auley the best friend he will ever have.